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Who am I that you think of me? When even on my best days it's hard to believe What people perceive of me and proceed to speak It's like I can't receive 'cause they don't see the real me Right? But You do But how though? When we both know the truth is ew And all the things that I do And all the things that I speak And all the things that I think It's just ugly You ain't gonna find nothing pretty inside So I don't understand why you even want me alive I get heated over dishes, I get pissy over dimes I wanna help my neighbor, but I value my time You see? I'm selfish It's all about me, stacking the deck I'm dealt with I could list a hundred reasons and more I'm a mess, I'm a wretch for sure You are holy and I am not But I keep tryna save myself And work my way up to you But you are holy and I am not And the more than I know myself I don't deserve what you do (I can't save myself) When I look in the mirror I see Nobody more undeserving and unworthy as me Cause I been wild and vile and off course for a while And I ain't talking in the past, I'm talking the last hour Yeah, yet here You are You're never too far, You're closer than I imagine And I can never fathom anybody before You But I do, all the time, everyday, right? The inventory is long and if I'm brave enough to face it I might come out the other side with a face lift where the grace is Even though I'm pretty sure You're mistaken But we both agree that I need saving Only You can do it I don't have the power to muscle my way through it And I could list a hundred reasons and more Cause I'm a mess I'm a wretch for sure You are holy and I am not But I keep tryna save myself And work my way up to you But you are holy and I am not And the more than I know myself I don't deserve what you do (I can't save myself)