Little Known

Does my equanimity inconvenience you You don't know what it took To get here hold on, was the prelude too intrusive Let me subdue, that's not me I'm always serene, altruistic, and quiet I descry everything I spare to be silent I know how barbarically I can Lacerate someone with my locution, intensely So I designate not to Without surcease I abdicate from everything for That account Don't misconstrue how much omnipotence I Can hold, Does that petrify you Should I extricate it You misreckoned with what I'm competent of Wait no, too invasive let's reiterate I just want to Tell my story Nobody can assimilate the disarray I went through to achieve this Ataraxia to be, I rather be languish and keep a tight Rein on me, I know It would agonize them more Than me if I did My character should tell You more about me then them Constant attempts for a rejoinder Your actions are impractical to me Does my quietude put you in Distress, nobody was there to Pick up the pieces, I deciphered It by myself, unfailingly All the disconcerted nights Not my body but my mind All the tears that whistled through My shirts and my blankets The wars I grappled When I envisioned an alliance I fought on my own No matter what was at The fore, so harmonious but Don't forget the extreme The hell I survived that Made me this gentle My self control isn't my weakness You miscalculated what I had to Conform with, you appraise me My poker face, don't be confounded to it, I promise You don't want to see My soul encountered more Than what you could Ever conceptualize I'm sedated through the crucible moments You can't displace me I efface My own tears, lost In My own world in petto Then go back into permanence Where I should be Don't let my idyllic manner Fool you, in my sector Of Xanadu, my intellection to you Can you see