Lazarus

I'm really sick and tired of caring for my friends If that makes me selfish, at least I'm being honest again I don't need another help book, or to conquer all my fears I just want to know somebody will be with me when I'm scared Because I'm afraid that I might give up soon I'm a mother to my mother I pay the price for what she did We lost her sister and her brother when I was just a kid And I still smell the flowers in a funeral home With a child's understanding, wondering "Where'd Aunt Jeanne go and is she gonna wake up soon?" Is she gonna wake up soon I'm terrible at boundaries I find it hard to draw the lines When everyone around me is so far on the other side And I just want to fix it I just want to save them all But I know that if they want to rise First, they need someplace to fall But I hope that you will rise up soon I hope that you will rise up soon It's hard to watch you wither and know that I can't help you bloom But I know you're gonna rise up soon Oh I know you're gonna rise up soon I know you're gonna rise up soon I know you're gonna rise up soon I could take you with me but I haven't got the room I could be a shelter from the storm that's chasing you I could be your Jesus, you'd be Lazarus in the tomb And I'd make sure that you would rise up soon