Always Nothing

Looks good Feels real good Telling everyone they never understood There's a deep hole Where your heart was You taste the champagne I only taste blood How'd you know we all know about it Take your pick and move on without it Lift your head and try to hold tears back Give me more and I'll cut you more slack Every time I try to feel I feel like I'm nothing In your eyes I'd pull the plug to make you feel something And it only hurts in good ways now As you cut me from the inside out If I think I find a faster way down I'll tell the gemini to take a bow I wanted to want it But it's not my kind of thing You could tell I started squirming when you said it's gonna sting And I've been hallowing the hollow Dressing death up as a king I'm always making out with martyrs just to see what luck it brings And if I loved you Then I would love to Follow every fucking order like I always do Cuz it's so like you Expecting me to Keep indulging in a hemorrhage of this magnitude Every time I try to feel I feel like I'm nothing In your eyes I'd pull the plug to make you feel something And it only hurts in good ways now As you cut me from the inside out If I think I find a faster way down I'll tell the gemini to take a bow I leave my fate in strangers' hands If they're really watching Then they'll understand Scrub my brain then scrub again Thinking how many times can I face my end Talk about a great gig Living for the right dig Willing to get real sick Even just to taste it Violently collapsing Subtly relapsing Opening a deep wound Just so we can make it I'm saying... Duplicate the sharpest pain And save that shit inside your brain With vomit like a hurricane Your mouth won't ever feel the same Every time I try to feel I feel like I'm nothing In your eyes I'd pull the plug to make you feel something And it only hurts in good ways now As you cut me from the inside out If I think I find a faster way down I'll tell the gemini to take a bow