Stand Still

Why oh why am I like this Always unclear and indecisive Can't make up my mind with all of these rhymes I don't know if I can fight this Sometimes I feel Like this life ain't real Like I'm at a crossroad Cold alone and at a stand still I'm waiting for a sign To show me where I reside Treat it like a mountain, can't go around it It's gonna be a steep climb The more time I waste Standing in the same place The more I get lost in my thoughts man Is this my fate? I'm tired of saying I'm tired Tired of livin a lie Tired of feelin deprived Tired of being alive Tired of sayin I'll try To make a change but I No I won't cause I No myself deep down No matter what I try Never will I know why I know I ask a lot of questions Often times I find myself on the defensive Say I don't care, life ain't fair, and continue on with clouds of stressing Smile on my face Often times fake You come say hey I say life's great Then walk a way Knowin damn straight Lying all day I am ungrate Full of hate I am to blame I am impa Tient, there's no way I can change Not at this pace But I have faith Life with play In my Fav Or and be great Just have to wait Carry this weight On my two blades For now, all I can say is Why oh why am I like this Always unclear and indecisive Can't make up my mind with all of these rhymes I don't know if I can fight this Sometimes I feel Like this life ain't real Like I'm at a crossroad Cold alone and at a stand still I'm waiting for a sign To show me where I reside Treat it like a mountain, can't go around it It's gonna be a steep climb The more time I waste Standing in the same place The more I get lost in my thoughts man Is this my fate? Complain, Complain, Complain, Complain I, don't know why, I act this way This, wasn't the way, that I was raised Apparently, it was just let me Explain, Explain, Explain, Explain Feels like I'm about to go insane, Although, I struggle I look unfazed Slowly finding my way out There's really no excuse I can use Must get loose Cut this noose Will get through Change my views Must call truce With myself Walk bear-foot Used to years Of abuse Grateful for The things I Can still do I guess I'm always going to question Why oh why am I like this Always unclear and indecisive Can't make up my mind with all of these rhymes I don't know if I can fight this Sometimes I feel Like this life ain't real Like I'm at a crossroad Cold alone and at a stand still I'm waiting for a sign To show me where I reside Treat it like a mountain, can't go around it It's gonna be a steep climb The more time I waste Standing in the same place The more I get lost in my thoughts man Is this my fate? (My fate) (My fate) (My fate) (My fate) (My fate)