Scars on me

I got these Scars on me So when you see that blood On the blank page bro Just know I'm Scribbling down my pain We gon get it We not stopping until we chilling at the top They said to get it to the top I had to sacrifice so they can see me now They have been coming for my weakness, but I never show my bruises They just wanna see me faded I've been dealing with dem stresses, saw my momma on her knees My journey full of tears, asking the lord, please PTSD, on the night I saw my dad on the Glock they said, they want him dead Conversations with my God Let him live Another day Got demons on my back They say meditate f*ck the scene left me with scars Music got me through the pain And I always scribble facts I was 4, put their fingers on the trigger, they said they wanted more I had to dive in blood, that's the way they let me go Uhm uhmmmm, ehhh Cold night, Cold night, Cold night, Cold night, left these scars on me Cold night, Cold night, Cold night, Cold night, how I'm I gonna leave Cold night, Cold night, Cold night, Cold night, left these scars on me Cold night, Cold night, Cold night, Cold night, how I'm I gonna leave Yeah Phone on DND, Conversation with my aunt I've been praying up to God I got a battle cries I've been dealing with the scars, feels like I'm gonna die Question running in my mind, are we living just to die Taking pills in the night t-t-tryna take a nap Small poor city, but I got big dreams, waiting for that day red light we turn green See me looking at the skies, granny save me a star Cold night, Cold night, Cold night, Cold night, left these scars on me Cold night, Cold night, Cold night, Cold night, how I'm I gonna leave Cold night, Cold night, Cold night, Cold night, left these scars on me Cold night, Cold night, Cold night, Cold night, how I'm I gonna leave When things went wrong, this is what I said to God Help me keep me alive 'cause now I feel alone I kept on fighting but nobody came close That's when I realized that I had to do it on my own I sat that very day and waited for the dawn Friends that I called mine but everyone is gone I'm living in the darkness but I wanna face the sun They asked me if I could then I said yes I can Cause I knew I was to make it by the time I stop my cry Now I'm alone can anybody hear an answer this call Wanna help the way I feel but everyone is gone Helpless tryna find a way to make it home Hello big bro you came a long way and there is still more to walk Keep muting those scars with a smile until you get it to the top