Overboard (I'm not okay)

I don't wanna be just like this I don't wanna ever let you down Why am I always a damn mess Feeling like I'm lost up in the clouds I can feel my heart be racing When ever you come next to me And I don't wanna spend time wasting So take my hand and you can Help me Change this Life I'm making I think I needed to say Hold me closer When you pull me in Feeling so alone Like I lost my friends I'm just overboard With no life support And it's hard for me to say I'm not ok I'm not ok Sorry If I'm interrupting If I am I'll give you all your space Would it change if I got lucky Probably not I'm better off this way I'm sick of all these mixed emotions Telling me to go wait come and stay I don't know if I should listen To my heart or my fucking brain Help me Change this Life I'm making I think I needed to say Hold me closer When you pull me in Feeling so alone Like I lost my friends I'm just overboard With no life support And it's hard for me to say I'm not ok I'm not ok