Estranged

Living a facade, running from God All these problems coming my way, I can't even solve Doing myself wrong, but they done did it too I been tryna stay strong, but don't know what to do no more Feel like I'm destined to be alone But that can't be the move, nah And I know I been on my way—love is something that takes two, yeah But all my life, I done seen all the ways that can go wrong though This ain't a game, but I've been played Can't find no peace but alone But my mind plays games with me too, I think I died inside, ooh I think I said the wrong words How I get used like a tool, but when I want sum it gets worse I can't even run to nobody I got misused and it hurt Nah, for real though I don't even get it Like how'd it even turn out like that? My whole damn life I been in pain Going through things that be insane I can't believe some things I've seen, and even more I got the blame Ain't got no confidence inside my soul, nah, I feel like a lame Be really missing all the days of old, but all I see is pain I ain't talking 'bout no life that I don't know—because I live it Living every day with turmoil in my soul 'cause I'm stuck with it Wanna find the answer, wanna grow, but my heart's stuck within it Tryna run to God, but default mode is going back to sinning Running to the world ain't a solution that's gon' lead to winning I been on my own for a long time, I'm talking more than minutes Tryna grab ahold but it ain't mine, Now back at the beginning They said it would get better with time, but I'm still waiting in it