Blue and Content

Left to die, blood dripping out my eyes Brains splattered across your thighs as we watch the sunrise Bugs underneath my skin, keep on itching I try to trap em in, better get to stitching I keep the darkness in my vision Without it I'm not me, I'd be normal I had an epiphany, I like that I'm a mortal A kid that's scared to die, but also scared to live Paradoxical for sure, if you're confused please forgive Hanging off the cliff, see you standing above I call out for help, I beg you for your love You start to step on my fingers, I can't hold on But I stay positive that you'll change your mind, like a proton Life ain't a game, there ain't no respawn Some of us born to royalty, but most of us just a pawn Stay up 'til dawn, just to see the sun rise Cuz if it never does, I'd like to verify Do you see me? Do you even care? I've been looking for hope in a place where hope wasn't there, ugh Do you see me? Can't help that I'm scared I have no time to beg for help, or even throw out a prayer, ugh Do you see me? What's it even matter If you saw my pain it'd be the same, can't fix a glass that's already shattered It makes sense that ya'll scattered Frown plastered on my face, hope a smile can take its place, ugh Left to die, blood dripping out my eyes Brains splattered across your thighs as we watch the sunrise Bugs underneath my skin, keep on itching I try to trap em in, better get to stitching I keep the darkness in my vision In a dark spot, need no sympathy Unwanted thoughts screaming in my head like a symphony In this industry I can't expect support, so I won't ask You're either with me or you're not, so don't put on a mask I'm blue and content, accept my punishment Saying I'm okay to be around is like a compliment I hate to breathe, but who doesn't Somebody gave me hope to be, so who was it? My motivation fell apart when you had to depart I want to start the path to redemption, but I don't got it in my heart I think expecting me to change is unlikely This the me that's gonna stay, I doubt you'll ever see me smiling Do you see me? Do you even care? I've been looking for hope in a place where hope wasn't there, ugh Do you see me? Can't help that I'm scared I have no time to beg for help, or even throw out a prayer, ugh Do you see me? What's it even matter If you saw my pain it'd be the same, can't fix a glass that's already shattered It makes sense that ya'll scattered Frown plastered on my face, hope a smile can take its place, ugh