The Absence

You wouldn't understand, nobody listened or cared Please don't blame yourself but now my time has come I am in an utter hopelessness I can't, I won't fight back Have your coffee n' celebrate the birdsong Sing the freedom, I'll finally break free The torment is over and the agony is finally gone I'm tired of pretending of being someone I'm not I've felt like a burden to everyone and now I am no more I hope not to wake up again I am in charge I can't, I won't fight back Libera me, Domine, de morte aeterna In die illa tremenda Quando caeli movendi sunt et terra Dum veneris iudicare saeculum per ignem Requiem aeternam dona eis, Domine It feels bitter like the disappointments of my past But I finally feel good as there's no turning back I am shivering I see the clouds are coming as I'm fading into the unknown The yellow jacket has already started to embrace me This is my last hope I can find peace Flammas eius lucifer matutinus inveniat Ille, inquam, lucifer, qui nescit occasum Christus fillius tuus, qui regressus ab inferis Humano generi serenus illuxit et tecum vivit et regnat in saecula saeculorum Amen I can't wait for the absence of everything I hope you find peace as I am no longer in pain Life is just a dream and when we die we wake up I already miss you, I'll be waiting for you on the other side Smile remembering my smile Call it eternity Fabula acta est, plaudite!