Lilith

Laid up, barely breathin', doctor said I wouldn't make it Blood inside my lungs, felt my body startin' shakin' Demons in my mind, screamin' "Vee, you gotta take it" But I stood up through the storm, I don't bend, I fuckin break shit Told 'em I ain't weak, I ain't scared to bleed Had to learn to stand tall through the worst of me They was prayin' I'd fold, but the curse in me Had to dig through the pain, it was hurtin' me Yeah, I know that they hate my name But they won't say a word when I'm in they face I was down bad, had to make my way Now I'm back on ten, had to pave my lane Drownin' in my thoughts, feel like waves crashin' over me Tell me if I die today, will they still remember me? I can't trust a soul, so I keep that pole on me Ain't no love inside this world, every angel lost their wings Mummy sold her soul for highs, left me on my own to rise Needle in her veins at night, I was tryna stay alive Brain say leave, but my heart say ride Took too much L's, now it's do or die Ten man pulled up, left me for dead Took five of 'em down, almost got me dead Laid in my blood, heard sirens ahead Feds at my bed, wanna talk instead I told 'em "Get the nurse, I ain't sayin' sh*t" Rather lay six feet than to be a snitch Rather burn in flames than to fold and switch Pain in my chest, but I still won't quit Drownin' in my thoughts, feel like waves crashin' over me Tell me if I die today, will they still remember me? I can't trust a soul, so I keep that pole on me Ain't no love inside this world, every angel lost their wings Demons in my head, but they won't let go Tryna numb the pain, but it fucking won't Tryna leave the past, but the past won't fold If I make it to the top, will my heart stay cold? Ayy, life cutthroat, but I stand on ten Been through hell, still here again Tryna win, but the cycle spin Devil on my back, whisperin' sins Lost too many, pain cut deep Tryna break free, but I feel too weak Tell me God, is there hope for me? Or is fate gon' bury me beneath these streets?