Love Letter To You

04 Honda Accord is where I keep my sorrows tell you that I'm sorry I had some time for realizing I hate myself and I love myself I'm cool with where I am, but I want more wealth I distance myself from people that show they really care A defense mechanism, cause deep down I'm scared what opening up means, what being vulnerable means Tried it once before and it ended poorly for me Growing up thinking I was on my own Not sure the reason why, know it started from home The youngest is the one with the hall pass, they said And it's true, but sometimes I just lay in my bed, look Contemplate on how things could have been different Wishing on a star, hoping someone would listen But nobody did, so I had a different mindset Started with some poetry, so I sound articulate Being a role model at the age of 10 Felt I had to grow up, try to become a man That was never the plan, things happen Life moves too fast, so you start taking action Never opened up, not even to my family I can't really expect them to know a thing about me Friends I know good, but not the same, vice versa Friends for five years, I know it seems unheard of Inabilities a thing that I want to get rid of To the point where I think of ways to get away with murder Kill my weakness, steal bat, and just go for a home run Make sure it's gone before I head out and have some fun There's this girl I want to take it to the next level I got baggage but I'm doubtful of me and my mental Can I handle caring for me and another being Can I be in love if I don't love myself Should I love you even if it will help Should I tell you, should I keep it to myself Having a tall glass of something looking real nasty Talk less depending on how I feel exactly Trying to find value, being lit ain't enough Sending texts to the homies just trying to see what's up It's not to see what's up, find a chance to open up I like good conversation, but I'm trying to ante up Trying to raise the stakes but people fold before I do When they show their true colors, it just got me feeling blue With my kind being painted red, that shit hurts me too Loss count, bring protection when I go into a room, look Target practice for some people, so I knock some heads Count my days, can't even trust the feds Make this bread, hard work will be compensated I'm trying to take this further to Grammy nominated Shoot for the stars and my aim is true Spent most of my life looking for a clue It won't happen if I don't put the work in I'ma create a moment so good it's picture perfect Tired of not believing myself, I've lost sleep Tired of saying yes, I'm just trying to be me I'm realizing people aren't like what they seem That too goes for me, so I'm moving differently Acting more accordingly, but following my gut Following my heart to tell me if this shit's enough I'm trying to stay tough, but even tough can break Life applied pressure, how much I can take But I'll never give in, got some more that's fine I'ma take these hits, cause I know there's time Happiness I lost is something that I'll find I'ma find that window to take back what's mine So I'ma take it there and I'ma take you out I'ma show you what the real me is all about I'ma make you come in more ways than one I'ma show you that I'm not just his mother's son I'ma cherish you and I'ma love you forever I'ma show you a life that I know is better I'ma show progress to make a change in mind A love letter to you couldn't fit in one line