Desire (feat. RazorTail)

(It was my desire, It was my desire, It was my desire, I don't wanna go and do it) I don't wanna be dreaming, I don't wanna do anything else All my life, there were so many things that I've always wanted but I could never have it My life's a mess, I can never do shit right, I feel like I'm nothing but a havoc They say life is a test, well I'ma go down as the one who never fucking passed it I can't even keep my mind intact, when I'm all alone, I might do something drastic All my life, I wasted my time Never wasted a dime cause I did everything with you You were part of my desire But apparently you were just a goddamn liar It was ride or die But soon I figured out it was all a lie That's when I realized everything you said and everything you did was a waste of my time Everything we've done was all a game to you, I got fucking played for a goddamn fool You treated me like a toy Wasting me out and went for the next boy All my life, there were so many things that I've always wanted, but I could never have it My life's a mess, I can never do shit right I feel like I'm nothing but a havoc They say life is a test, well I'ma go down as one who never fucking passed it I can't even keep my mind intact, when I'm all alone, I might do something drastic I feel like my mind is stuck in a dream As I hurt myself, I can't even sleep I tried my best, but you looked down on me I know I'm not perfect, but I'm being the best that I can be And I promise I'll keep on trying I'll keep on trying That's a promise All my life, there were so many things that I've always wanted, But I could never have it My life's a mess, I can not do shit right, I feel like I'm nothing but a havoc Too much pain, too much fucking drama Yeah, I've been through much trauma Too much fucking damage Even with the friends that I had, Even with the love of my life I still feel like I would vanish Yeah, I really wanna vanish Yeah, I wish I wasn't here Yeah, I wish I wasn't here