Broken

Lately I've been on my own I distance myself from everyone else I have trust issues now I'm just a kid learning how to be a Man A kid who's been stabbed in the back Multiple Times by people who I Thought were my Friends So many people didn't believe in me Until now Some come around tryna ride with Me Some just want something from me Some just want to talk to me Some are just asking me for favors But for the few Where were you when I needed a Hand Or when I would be in the floor Crying my eyes Out Wanting to die Taking pills every night So in the course of time It improves my mood Help me go to sleep in peace Increase my appetite Concentrate more Making better choices I sometimes get paranoid from all My suicide attempts Homie That blade could've gone Deep in my flesh My Mother could've walked in As she would start to look down Towards the Bathroom floor Seeing blood all over my clothes As I would give my last breathe I wonder how life would be right Now I know for a fact it wouldn't be Colorful roses It would be dark clouds Ferocious with tears coming down Towards every chin from all my love Ones (F*ck) As My family would celebrate the Holidays without my presence My cousin Vanessa probably Wouldn't live in peace for the rest of Her life Knowing her favorite person in this World is Gone forever I no longer want to think about Suicide I just want to live my life again I just want to smile again I just want to see my mama happy Again No stress no fear no doubts running Around the house To the point were it becomes a Problem I just want everything to be how it Used to be I don't want to fall in love just to get Played Having my heart broken Being used for my money I fuckin hate this shit so much I just want to go back in time And live those days when I would be Happy I fuckin hate this shit I fuckin hate this shit