Thoughts in the Rain

I lie awake tonight Wishing of things I can change I try to convince myself But it's all so strange Is it me, or is it you Do I try, or are we through So long we've shared just to walk away But so much hurt, to want to say Why do we do this to hurt the other more Only to watch one walk right out the door I love you so much, yet I push you to the point of breaking But why do you play with my heart, and never stop taking Is this the end or a new beginning Only one can guide me but when my head is spinning Don't push, don't try Don't stress, don't cry That is what plays over and over in my head As I try to close my eyes and go to bed Amanda She said that she can’t take no more then turn around and take some more You probably with this nigga right now I heard them lies come out your mouth Who the f*ck was that about What the f*ck can’t you let go And apparently not me ‘cause bitch I ain’t no come and go ‘Cause your heart's been ripped apart, and torn apart, and shred to pieces I’m you the reasons to f*ck around leave me But I ain’t give no reason for your ass to be out cheating But you broke my heart like shattered glasses Sweep me up like I’m some ashes F*ck it, I’m collapsing This is so passive I might need an assassin to kill all this pain I feel that shit in my brain ‘Cause this is love on the brain Bitch, you made me this way Bitch, you made me this way They tried to slow us down no matter how far we got And you would mess it up, no matter how hard we fought Why Niggas I- Niggas I- Niggas I can’t stand it She having some confusion She can’t understand I said I had a bigger view so I had to go and expand it I got my hands tied F*ck it, man, down Like it’s shackles on my feet Don’t close the gates lord I repeat I don’t cross the gates I meet I could feel the heat Its too late Man this shit so incomplete Can’t tell my mama what I seen This ain’t no dream, this shit so real This shit reality, I can’t believe what I just seen I'm fucked up in a dream, that shit make you scream I'm fucked up in the head, that shit made her scream