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Why am I ashamed I gotta go back to the days It’s not like anyone stayed Nobody came It’s always the same Nobody changed It’s all in my brain It’s all in my veins I gotta find a way To make an escape Just hop on a plane You don’t know my name It’s funny cause you think We’re the same But I gotta change For better or worse Whatever comes first You think I’m the worst I might just be cursed Blood on my shirt You know how it hurts I write in reverse Imma jump in hearse Put my heart in a verse I might need a nurse That comes with alerts This world is diverse We’re making it work I think I’m alive But it coulda been worse Life is a journey My vision is blurry Nobody heard me I try not to worry You don’t even notice me Why are you ghosting me I guess I’m the only me But why do it trap my mind Tell myself that I’ll always be fine It only last for a night But why am I sad all the time I don’t even know what it’s like to be happy I hear talkin but you’re sitting in the backseat I don’t want you to come around asking me What’s it like? cause it never really mattered to me. I don’t wanna know the truth The lies in my head I hear em I don’t know what I see in the mirror I look at myself and there ain’t nothing left I should talk to him I don’t even hear him Why is everything fading No escape Why do all the clouds turn grey When it rains Why do I put myself through All the pain I try to deal with my thoughts But it’s hard to run away It’s such a tragedy Are you mad at me I use this as an escape But you wanna look and just laugh in my face I wish there were some things I could erase My pain is my music, I really need space I can’t relate We all make mistakes It’s hard to embrace With no faith Full speed with no brakes What happens if the rope breaks We all got our own race Own pace No space But it’s okay But why do I feel like this To the point I don’t know what it is And everything’s drifting away Like it’s out of its place I don’t know what to say I’m goin MIA All I see is grey Try to save me but it’s too late I feel the walls closing in Depression moving in again It’s never gonna win But I feel it over my shoulder Nobody told em Where am I going? My mind is exploding Like TNT The frenemies Like enemies The remedies and memories What do you see in me Like abc’s and vip’s Who do you want me to be Like why me I’m trying to see things through a different lens I wanna be brave but it doesn’t make sense All my regrets jump over the fence I wanna be alright but I have nowhere to vent I try to get away but I lack self defense I hide my emotions I try to condense I wanna know why But it is what it is Why is everything fading No escape Why do all the clouds turn grey When it rains Why do I put myself through All the pain I try to deal with my thoughts But it’s hard to run away