Am I the Good Guy?

It doesn't matter if I could turn back time I always find a way too sabotage my life Every good deed will slowly disappear My disarray and all my pain is all you'll ever hear Maybe I hurt too much Maybe I trust too much Maybe Im just a not that good enough Maybe I try too much Maybe I care too much Maybe I'm why you cry Was I meant to be the Villain In this life I never, ever said that I was a good guy What is wrong me I thought I was going strong But Every choice I made ended up being wrong I could have been your hero, I could have been your saint But every chance I get I push it all away Maybe I'm with no luck Maybe I'm just fucked up Maybe I'm terrible after all Maybe I'm vicious Maybe I'm vile Maybe I'll never change Was I meant to be the villain in this life Cause now I never think Am I the good guy I tried so hard I worked for it all Crumbled to dust I lost it all And now I've lost you too I know I'm not the bad guy My intentions are still good I know I'm not the good guy Cause I still hurt you I know I'm not the bad guy I just end up being wrong If I am wrong and I'm not bad Am I the good guy now