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Hi everyone My name is Ivian I'm from Baltimore, Maryland I was born in June During the summer time A lovely time And yes I am indeed A Gemini If you were wondering The sex that I was assigned At birth is female so I was raised to be a woman Therefore My preferred pronouns For now Are her, and she I didn't really know I liked girls Until around middle school I probably had these feelings When I was younger but I can't quite remember My family was not With that gay shit at first It was a religious thing And my mom would make Her disapproval for homosexuality Very vocal and clear I didn't come out to my parents Till my senior year in high school I was in this marching band parade And don't laugh I was in drum-line so I was one of the cool ones It was for Columbus Day Which is a stupid holiday Cuz ya'll know He didn't actually discover North America Right Okay Anyway My scary ass Sent my mom and dad A long ass coming out text And then I turned my phone off Right before I started Marching in the parade I was thinking about how They might have been reacting The entire time When I was finished And turned my phone on I was met with disapproval And disappointment They made me feel disowned And alone So I took my pain And I said bet After I graduated I worked for a year And then moved to Denver For college A thousand plus miles Away from home Just to find myself I'm still finding myself I started partying Drinking Smoking the Devil's lettuce Way more than before And you know Getting a little wild In the moment I was having a good time But I didn't realize how much damage I was putting on myself Mentally And emotionally I met a girl Fell in love with her on an island And then she left me for someone else I was so confused And heartbroken Trying to find out how I could have been better But it wasn't until this time That I was at my lowest That I realized How amazing I truly am I didn't need to be them And I damn sure didn't need to be with her All I needed Was to love myself And love all that surrounds me Not only do I consistently practice self care But I also practice forgiveness And patience for myself And others My family And my friends Support me more than ever now And that's love That's all I need I'm basically trying to say I'm pretty Content, with me