Apologies

What if I stopped everything will it finished itself What if my dreams got shot now it's pleading for help What if I'll never blow up my voice wasn't enough What if my optimism's dead must refrain to sound blunt f*ck But I have to Life's just a bitch you wanna f*ck stay protected Niggas acting up acting Sus what's my issue I'm sick of my bullshit I hate you Karon I really do But your talents exceeds my expectations So I'm sorry for the pain and the suffering That I gave myself no more questioning No more doubts no more pain no more disrespect No more hate no more sadness I must confess I'm not perfect don't praise me when I'm up and stuck Or get it twisted I've worked for this without the luck The enemy of my enemy is me The enemy of my enemy is me Are you completely sure that You're done dissing me Now you realized that We're the same entity You hate me but I love you So that's means You love me too? I'm sorry I'm not prepared Still willing to give you everything if giving the chance That's my fantasy Final destination in your memories You probably won't remember me but I will for centuries I loved you but this isn't healthy You lost interest without the witness but f*ck it we ball This isn't a song I'm sorry but F*ck you for not believing in me Why