Wounds (feat. Aylius)

It feels like a thousand days So why do I feel the same I never thought I'd be fine so soon I just thought time would heal my wounds I don't know for how long I can keep playing strong I knew that I'd have to pay my dues I just thought time would heal my wounds Everybody lookin' like Ivo, where the f*ck have you been I was in the trenches, feelin' so defenseless I was this close to the motherfuckin' end I was really walkin' through hell I could feel heat on my feet, I'ma never go again Everybody couldn't even tell That I was so weak and I can't sleep Where's my pen? Where's my friends I ain't really got too many I'm tryin' hard to keep breathin I gotta keep a wall up Cause everybody I love Wanna dip out or they keep leavin And I'm like, what the hell is really wrong with me So I had to sit back this evening And realize that I gotta put myself at the top And really gotta start just believin That I can be the best if I just try I just wanna live, I don't wanna die Lost my cousin to suicide Every time I think about it, I cry I look to the sky and I ask, why I ain't really mean for this to get emotional But that's just how it go And if you know, you know But I think it's time for me to let it go Feels like a thousand days So why do I feel the same I never thought I'd be fine so soon I just thought time would heal my wounds I don't know for how long I can keep playing strong I knew that I'd have to pay my dues I just thought time would heal my, time would heal my I had a conversation with God He told me to relax and be strong It was hard to write this fuckin' song Every day I'm feelin' so alone Mental health is real all along Thinkin' that I'm right, then I'm wrong Honestly, I might just belong Inside the mental house, that's my home So don't bother me I don't really give a f*ck about apologies I just wanna let go, let go and let God Tryna get the demons out of me And honestly, I just wanna vent for a second Call this my therapy But the problem is, every time that I open up People act so scared of me Why I'm the one gettin' hurt Contemplatin' on leavin' this earth And I didn't wanna believe it at first But then I realized I was cursed since birth Damn And I ain't mean for this to get emotional But that's just how it go And if you know, you know But I think it's time for me to let it go Feels like a thousand days So why do I feel the same I never thought I'd be fine so soon I just thought time would heal my wounds I don't know for how long I can keep playing strong I knew that I'd have to pay my dues I just thought time would heal my Time would heal my wounds I just thought time would heal my wounds