Apology Song

I've never been real good at apologizing Too much awkward in acknowledging All the ways I screw up on the regular I've never been very good at conversation Always missing words and confusing the meaning So this is my apology song I'm sorry for the things I never said For the ways I pulled away instead I hope you know, I hope you see Every sorry is just love in disguise from me Mom, I'm sorry for all my selfishness For the weight that I put on your chest I'm sorry I buried your daughter deep Under blankets of silence, too lost to speak To my brothers, I should have been more The big sister you were looking for I never set the path just right But I'm proud of who you are tonight I'm sorry for the things I never said For the ways I pulled away instead I hope you know, I hope you see Every sorry is just love in disguise from me To the best friend I ever had I'm sorry I couldn't be what you deserved And to the ones who have gone ahead I wish I'd been braver, wish I had said Grandma, grandad, you're far away And I don't know what to say I'm sorry our family wasn't enough But we're still here, standing tough And Daddy, I'm sorry I couldn't save you I hope you heard the love in my words "Drive safely" was always my way to say "I love you, don't go, please stay" I'm sorry that I don't know if you hear me now But if you do, just know somehow When I'm saying sorry, when I'm breaking through What I'm really saying is—I love you