Just Jest

I'd like to tell you a story One about wars for glory Everything I've lived until now I've fought for the land of Chess And tried to forget the rest I've never questioned why or how This might sound naïve But I never believed There was something for me But now I see it My whole life I've played so many parts A soldier, a joker, all without a heart I've never known quite how how to feel But with you everything seems real I may have much to loose But when I'm with you I'm just Jest There's something I see about you Bold and clever And you've seen me like no one has before I can't seem to understand it Why I'm drawn to you and it Makes my heart race more and more I've so much to hide But no matter how I try I'm finding it hard To lie to you I've never felt like this before Every moment with you Leaves me wanting more It's like you know quite how I feel And all of my troubles aren't real I'll make this last 'Cause you don't know my past I'm just Jest I'm just Jest I'm just Jest! What would my friends say My heart's too far away No matter what I want How can I stay? I'm used to playing a part But how do you act when it hurts your heart? How can I tell you the truth? Who would it hurt more, me or you? I'm tired of lying I'm tired of fighting a war But how can I give you up now Nothing will change no matter how I try to find a loophole But there's no way for me to let you go If only you knew But what can I do I'm just Jest I'm just Jest I'm just Jest! I'm just Jest