Just Wondering

Here I am Overthinking everything Once again I'm far too caught up in a dream Nowhere to hide But no matter how I try I can't lie to you If they could see right through me (My whole life I've played so many parts) Maybe they'd understand (A soldier, a joker, all without a heart) If only they could know me (I've never known quite how to feel) My hearts in my hand (But with you everything seems real) So how am I supposed to let go? I don't want to give you up now And I can't just move on But nothing will change no matter how Even if it's wrong I'm tired of lying I'm tired of hiding But oh-oh I'm wondering, if they knew (I'm just Jest) I'm wondering what they'd do (I'm just Jest)