I'm Sorry

Staring at the ceiling, from a cold and empty bed The echoes of old feelings, screaming loudly in my head I still hear all your laughs, I can still see all your smiles From the ones down in our past, to the ones you never had Took down all your pictures, as if you were the one to blame But the empty walls now whisper, like a blank canvas of shame Each shadow wears your name, like a sick and cruel game I close my eyes in vain, but each sigh hurts just the same Breaking down in agony Drowning in my misery I brought chaos in our symphony And for that I'll ever be I'm sorry! I couldn't be the man you needed me to be I'm sorry! I couldn't break free from my own tyranny You tried to break my fall, but I was already too far gone But now, I'm sorry! I'll never get a chance to see...what we were meant to be Broken into pieces, like so many of my old promises Consumed by all my vices, shredding all your sacrifices Tryin' to find a reason, to keep fighting my own demon Hoping for a beacon, to guide me through a better season Trapped inside obscurity Caught by my own history I brought chaos in our melody And for that I'll ever be I'm sorry! I couldn't be the man I promised I could be I'm sorry! I failed to grab the hand you kept reaching out to me You always stood so tall, while I could barely crawl And now, I'm sorry! I'll never get to see what we could be...with an ounce of clarity Caught up by reality Awaken by sobriety Chained to my captivity But now it's too late for me to be I'm sorry! I couldn't be the man you wanted me to be I'm sorry! I somehow became our own worst enemy You always stood so tall, while I could barely move at all But now, I'm sorry! I'll never get a chance to make you see...a better side of me I'm sorry! I couldn't be the man I promised I could be I'm sorry! I didn't fight for you, the same way you fought for me You tried to raise me up, but I'd already given-up But now, I'm sorry! To see how much better your life seems to be...without me