Lonely

Here I am empty handed No one fucking cared as if I ever imagined Take a knife, that's too mainstream Tie a noose, no one can hear me scream So much for those hotlines The phone reception started to bleed I write a letter and I send it to the paparazzi Ever wondered if the pain would stop or form a wall around me Lock my mental illnesses away up in our space I'm happy No more creeping up behind me Constant staining of my countless disasters Unstable terrain and a bucket of plasters Covered up my evidence before I committed It's time to say goodbye I'll see you motherfuckers after Take me out put a fucking bullet through my head My will to live expired prising open up my bed A metaphor I meant it's for my coffin my mistake An exhibition of me dead who's body's always never awake Could never afford our bills So what's the tombstone gonna take? The day has come to intake your goodbyes An ocean made from the tears in your eyes Everybody start to blame all as they fight A moment of silence is needed for my flight Lemme name the people, the ones who keep me stable The reasons for living and not walking away unable Momma, Daddy, Brother, sister, holy f*ck I'm gonna miss yas Aunty, Granny, Granda, Uncle I'm sorry for being a f*ck up Friends and cousins all above A jigsaw not complete enough I'm out of here I leave my peers Enjoy your life remains without my muscles, got me through all my Troubles In the name of the father, the son, the Holy Spirit I hope you learned a lesson, bet you gonna miss me