All In The Lies

I open my heart to this curse, believe it and feel even worse Im over the dramatics and the stats they leave me in the ground come first I apologise for all that I am segregate my mind from my hands Cause one is on the throttle and I'm accountable for all of the dread It's all in my lies, I am plagued by the lies Always filled with lies - tellin' myself these lies Stay up, f*ck up, disregard yourself Own up, forever messed up, from something worse It's clockwork baby I try to blame me, and live on a broken limb It's clockwork baby, I try to blame me. It hurts me much more in the end My body is in protest, mindset in distress It's all in my lies, I tell myself these lies And I'm accountable for lies, over again for lies Steady in the moment, present but I'm holding out, how? Ready and I'll own it, scared but I'll know why Its all in my lies, So consumed by my lies Preying that I will find, a solitude self defined