Melanin Sons (Intro)

I got a call from the homie Said he wanted to talk So I met him up the block And we went for a walk He said iz listen Please tell me the truth I been feeling hella lost And I don't know what to do I don't wanna be a failure But I hate being in school I turn 18 in a week Tell me what ima do If I don't walk across that stage Then my moms gone put me out No matter what I do All she do is put me down And you know I love my mother All we do is scream and shout I mean Damn its crazy I use to be her baby Now all that she say to me Is that I'm spoiled and lazy I try to talk to her And gain her support Why she even have kids That she cant support! And I don't get to see my father When he behind on support And I'm so sick of them fighting They always in court When she gone see That I aint no child no more It's like She see my father And not her child no more And honestly I don't feel like her child no more Its hard for me dog But I'm just trying grow up I made a promise to myself That I would not be a bum But I'm really kind of shook About what's to come I be stressing to the point That I be bout to throw up This is a big moment for me And I gotta show up But I don't know if I should swing Or go for the bunt All I know is Is that I won't give up I be so mad some mornings That I just don't get up I go back to sleep Or smoke me a blunt I be walking through the house dog Stoned as f*ck Granny keep saying Wait on Jesus Grandson I been praying a lot lately But I don't think he gone come You always be church Do you think he might come Iz is you listening You looking high as f*ck I said homie listen Yo granny was right Of course the lord hears you Keep praying at night Keep trying with you mother It's gone be alright Never give in Keep yo goals insight The pressures of the world Feel lesser for a girl When you growing up We supposed to take care of her And our Mothers And our Sister And our Brothers And our Nieces And our nephews And our Niggas It's a whole lot of pressure And I can't help but wonder If it's really worth the effort Aint interested in school But I don't wanna be a failure We ain't asking for a boost Just a little hand up That's why it's paramount That we practice self love Don't get down on yourself Just cuz you messed up It's just the rights of passage For us melanin sons That's dealing with the present Hoping better will come For far too many of us That's never gone come