Faulty Seed (feat. Shelbato)

I could change if I wanted to, ignorance in a hundred truths Living in my own lies thinking I won't die if my body moves I'm narcissistic and it's hard to miss it look into it The essence of my being laying on graves of prophets pushing tulips Yeah I hardly knew it, but I did too Too blind to admit that I'm schizo, phrenic I hear panic in my voice It's outlandish when you're manic in the void Making choices all devoid of evil But it's demonic if you let the world alone deceive you Ego Don't get it twisted I learnt my lesson Identification will truly devise and conspire to alter your wisdom If I identify with god that's my religion Suffice to say that sentiment alone would blind my vision But bridges burn and pages turn To my surprise I come to find my aches would yearn to then return To my creator if I could say it know I'm serious I came from a long line of muslim borns & blood filled Syrians I found alignment in it all and in my body's meridians, you're feeling it The energy is flowing there's no defending it So f*ck the naysayers saying there's no definitive answer Cause if it's true then my demise will soon perish and pass up Its beauty in the amalgamation of religion and spiritual energy It's difficult to see faults in a better me that would bewilder me A bit of me was absent, a bit of my was anxious, finding traction, thought I found meaning in my lack of resentment call for action I hope one day I could visit Medinah Compose my demeanor To never wonder if higher self is fused with ego I wonder it and you would to If u wasn't caught up in natures ways and bullets that could mute you Part of me Don't know what part of me Talking to all of me I'm product faulty seed Rolling up my sleeves He grew up with a broken soul A broken home Met up hallucinogenic seventeen when he fried to bone He's Palestinian by the way a product of lack of prognosis A product of lack decency and prospect Pinch me out this dream An angry father bring the family freshly new to middle east Grew up poor but privileged Can't compare me to no other kids Even though Every morning with no warning, everything falling zero cautions It's often mama balling tears, fear calling, we haunted God trolling, no joke when, real problems just problems Can't solve em peace not an option not very often, no Why we never could blossom and now you know More pain, more drugs On the cusp of suicide, when brother tried How father rage, how mother cry But Jiggy tough, passing time Jiggy aged, we crossed lanes, I've made a friend Finally met his little brother realized in this world we needed nobody but each other Shared his story seeing it from this mature perspective Now my obvious question why did your past intentions shift that blade to vein My own hardships answered with self suicide prevention aid We bonded over simple message Try relieve the pain when injustice prevent it Today we see the USA tax Falasteeni's lives Yemen hungry, Sudan borderline no civil ties Congo where the communist has colonized Yes were privileged, don't compare us to no other kids Part of me Don't know what part of me Talking to all of me I'm product faulty seed Rolling up my sleeves