Vanished

I've gone insane, out my brain, can't explain it Numb to this pain, plain as Jain, I can't stand it Gassed up, butane, in my lane, I've been damaged I wish you vanished, I wish you vanished You try to take control when I wake up You tell me that I'm stuck so live my life for the pay stubs Then I hit the road, make my heart feel like eight tons You drive me up the wall and I'm losing my patience But I ain't gon say nothin The more on my plate, the more that I eat, the more that you know, I start losing hope I hate getting older, didn't know you before At least pay rent for my mind if you calling it home Uh Some days are better than others But I won't live my life scared hiding under the covers You make my life a living hell and my mind is what suffers I don't know what's going on, but I hope I recover Uh Heart beating out my chest, while I write this song So I gotta tell these people. try to right my wrongs You just wanna be a secret, let my life go on But I won't let you live inside where you don't belong I've gone insane, out my brain, can't explain it Numb to this pain, plain as Jain, I can't stand it Gassed up, butane, in my lane, I've been damaged I wish you vanished, I wish you vanished I worry all the time and it's getting to me I don't wanna be this way, I can't do the pick and choosing Half the time it's stupid and I don't know why I do it But you putting thoughts inside I know are lies but it's confusing You tell me that I'm never good enough and my girl gonna leave She found a man that's got money, better looking, can't compete But I've seen it in her eyes, in her heart the way it beats Tells me I'm the one for her, no need to worry just believe Uh But it's harder than that, you know I'm living in the future cuz the present's my past What if I fail as a husband or I suck as a dad Man I would hate to let you down and it's making me sad I think I've almost hit my wall, what a battles it's been But you've been burning all the bridges that are saving my skin And you've been here through it all, creating thick from the thin So here's my life, I'm done playing games, take home the win So you're really gonna give up? Just abandon it all And leave the people that you love stuck outside of your walls Cuz you refused to ask for help when you started to fall You've even given up on God by rejecting His calls I'm saying never let another human being feel alone You are beautiful and loved, you can call me on my phone If you ever need to talk, I will make the love known Your life is worth living don't make today written in stone I've gone insane, out my brain, can't explain it Numb to this pain, plain as Jain, I can't stand it Gassed up, butane, in my lane, I've been damaged I wish you vanished, I wish you vanished