Alive

You were the hardest lesson I ever learnt I still have to find ways to forget the hurt So long ago I can't remember most parts But when I unlock them it makes the hurt start All over again Makes me remember when I stayed up all night not knowing if you were alright Brings it back again to when I lost friends Because I'd always choose you They didn't know why But it kept you alive You alive Alive kept you alive Remembering is like holding thorns I don't feel the roses only the pain of it all No one sees the beauty that you were for me And they don't understand if it was so bad Why I couldn't leave I could't leave you said you wouldn't carry on And you blamed me for all in your life that was wrong You said it was wrong of me to ask you to stay To look me in the eye and I'll make you okay If you stay alive For one more night I'm killing myself here To make you say goodnight instead of goodbye Alive Stay Alive Stay Alive I had to leave to stay alive My heart couldn't take the pain It forgets you to survive You killed me I didn't mind the pain 'Cause now we can both that you survived That you're still alive