Tissues

I walk through the doorway Sit at my seat There's already piles of tissues at my feet But I start to daven anyway Modeh Ani And I'm thankful even though there are tissues at my feet I'm up to the Amidah I take three steps back And all I could think of are the things that I lack But I say the words anyway MiChamochah Av HaRachamim And I'm okay even though there are tissues at my feet I look over at the chazan There's tears in his eyes 'Cause he's singing 'bout his actions that he thinks Hashem will despise And I'm trying to emulate it But I just don't get How to feel that type of feeling That makes me regret And I'm standing for hours and hours and hours And I'm tired 'cause hours and hours of my life Are for You Shema Yisrael Hashem Elokeinu And they're singing and crying for hours and hours And I'm crying 'cause I'm not crying I don't know what to do Shema Yisrael Hashem Elokeinu Shema Yisrael So I have to take a seat Put my head in my hands 'Cause all these people are saying things that I just don't understand I look over at the chazan There's tears in his eyes 'Cause he's singing 'bout his actions that he thinks Hashem will despise And I'm trying to emulate it But I just don't get How to feel that type of feeling That makes me regret And I'm standing for hours and hours and hours And I'm tired 'cause hours and hours of my life Are for You Shema Yisrael Hashem Elokeinu And they're singing and crying for hours and hours And I'm crying 'cause I'm not crying I don't know what to do Shema Yisrael Hashem Elokeinu Shema Yisrael I know some people are imperfect But that's an understatement for me 'Cause these people get to hold their heads up high but I'm down on my knees And as I say Ashamnu I know I'm a liar, and that's the start 'Cause the more I hit my heart I feel it falling apart As I look over at the chazan His face stained with tears And I'm wondering how he's gotten through all the crying all these years And I'm trying to emulate it But I just can't seem to grasp How everyone has closure But my life's an open clasp And I'm standing for hours and hours and hours And I'm tired 'cause hours and hours of my life Are for You Shema Yisrael Hashem Elokeinu And they're singing and crying for hours and hours And I'm crying 'cause I'm not crying I don't know what to do Shema Yisrael Hashem Elokeinu Shema Yisrael Hashem Elokeinu