CUT MY LOSSES///////RUMINATING

I got a lot of pain I still need to get healed through I know I said I healed, man I really thought I did too So call me a fake, call me a snake, say that you hate, so I could break and lose what's at stake Cause I can't even trust the process I feel I'm a piece of garbage I just have to cut my losses I don't ever want to call it All my friends have looked and said it I just keep on hitting dead ends I continue losing close friends I'm not boasting I'm just broken No one knows I haven't spoken I'm just bottling depression I'll lead you the wrong direction So you can stop asking questions Won't ever give my confession I'll write it in music sessions Where I feel I'm luminescent And hope I could be a blessing I thought all my scars would heal throughout time But all these demons are still inside my mind I'm broken down to my feelings down inside And I hate that I still walk as if I am blind I am blind I have a bit of trauma I still need to get healed through I know I said it's sealed, but it kept opening old wounds I don't feel like talking cause I feel as if it's old news I've been fighting for years with the same old stupid issues And every single time my dad asks if I'm alright Wanna look away to cry Know he sees it in my eyes But I keep it down inside Being strong is what I try I'm asking God who am I? Cause I feel I live a lie Cause I can't even trust the process I feel I'm a piece of garbage I just have to cut my losses I don't ever want to call it All my friends have looked and said it I just keep on hitting dead ends I continue losing close friends I'm not boasting I'm just broken No one knows I haven't spoken I'm just bottling depression I'll lead you the wrong direction So you can stop asking questions Won't ever give my confession I'll write it in music sessions Where I feel I'm luminescent And hope I could be a blessing I thought all my scars would heal throughout time But all these demons are still inside my mind I'm broken down to my feelings down inside And I hate that I still walk as if I am blind