WISH I COULD BELIEVE YOU//GUTTER

Do you really love me Man, I don't even know My last call to help me Was a stupid no show People sayin' that they love me Then why am I alone? I've been going through some things I wish I could visit home But I'm too scared to I don't wanna hear the drama fill my ears till I am breaking in my room and I can't feel You Need to pray some more, gonna lose myself soon Soon, aye yo Mom and dad I love you and I'm hoping things get better Cannot count the times I wanted to leave a letter Thoughts I thought I overcame, came back in the gutter Trust that I am trying to pick me up but I just stutter To all of my siblings, man I swear to you that I'm here Even if I were to leave I swear to you that I'm all ears Im panicking so much, I need my God right now to steer This will be my cry for help, tell me if you even hear I'm all alone I'm writing in my room I'm on my own Riding till I'm dead soon You're here for what? I know that you don't mean it You say you love Just wish I could believe it