Bitter Poetry

I think I have it at the right volume Alright lets go I don't wanna' just rap, I wanna' make music I smoke a lot of weed, but I ain't stupid If I don't have THC, then my brain loosens Get way confused and, kind of go insane and lose it Is this weirdness just me maturing from evil urges Cause I choose not to be converted to cheesy churches None that shit makes sense to me, your need to worship This rap shit is a game to see who can reach the furthest I seize a purpose but I struggle cause I can't find it Last year, had a couple members from my fam die I'm Feeling guilty, I would never visit cause my hands tied and I be forgetting how fucking precious all my damn time is Had a bad mindset All that savage rhyming When I'm rapping grimy Might come back to bight me That's for acting hyphy Just want my fans to like me On my path to shining Don't care about the timing I just want to take it slow We gone make it home and even if it taking long I ain't caring where we go, on lot of things I may be wrong Writing all these bitter songs but I learned how to take a loss I guess that you could say I'm lost I'd like to tell myself it's all up from here Hopefully we don't get the belt from another year Without my father was protective when my brother scared Always checking below the bed to see what's under there Yeah, got nothing to be afraid of Love is the thing that change us Niggas strung up being a hater 'Tryna bust at MCs who came up That fuckery is contagious This life is a crazy bitch While I some degree entertain her I just want to make the most from this Rest in piece to the ones who had to go from us Still 'tryna find sleez I been ghost hunting Every drop kept going when I sold nothing The smartest ones really know nothing Felt like god since my soul summoned No improv, this my whole front end Write these songs and I don't rush it I just want to take it slow We gone make it home and even if it taking long I ain't caring where we go, on lot of things I may be wrong Writing all these bitter songs but I learned how to take a loss I guess that you could say I'm lost