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I used to dream of this On my thinking shit All the people pleasing Make me feel depleted Been concealing secrets Got me killing deamons For now I need reason if you need me I'm sick of having repeats Of being passively weak I try to rationally think More the success, more the boundaries you build Some get jealous and put you down like you failed They all upset it's turning out to be real They hand them out to you once them flowers are ill Sick of rappers that I'm better than Acting like they veterans You know my shit ain't trash Ands its facts, lot of jealous fans Been slacking on the promo F*ck a photo it's irrelevant Been solo smoking more dro on an axis how my head is spinning I used to dream of this Is this really what I wanted? On my thinking shit What am I trying to accomplish? Nothing Sick of acting like I'm cool when I'm not I never really fit in while in school I was saw As the one black kid that could whoop and had hops Still didn't make the team, kind of ruined my confidence Ide start pick apart my list Of what I'm good at, nothing corporate, guess an artist lit Should I vibe out on this mic or spit some harder shit And be narcissistic Yeah some hard decisions to make Some parts are fiction it's fake This artistry entertainment A lot of this shit feel lame When you Posing for a camera Social for the fans huh More of a distraction Supposed to do some rap stuff I chose to be a rapper Mostly just to have fun Yeah I said I chose to be a rapper mostly just to have fun I used to dream of this Is this really what I wanted? On my thinking shit What am I trying to accomplish? Nothing I used to dream of this Is this really what I wanted? On my thinking shit What am I trying to accomplish? Nothing