I'm Trying

And when the day goes by then I'm not gonna brag. Cos' it's not like I could ever get the time that I lost back. It's just one of those quiet things that turn into the loudest trying to be proud by I'm not an epidemiologist. And all that remains to be seen.. Well I'll be as quiet as a mouse so that I don't irrevocably cause a scene. And I promise you, I'm trying, but it's all so mystifying to me. Change is kinda scary, but it's the only way for me. I tell myself that i'll be grateful but sometimes I just wanna feel things too. I'll raise my hand up to the sky and paint the colour blue, but colours sometimes fade away and thats okay. And all that remains to be seen.. Well I'll be as quiet as a mouse so that I don't irrevocably cause a scene. And I promise you, I'm trying, but it's all so mystifying to me. Change is kinda scary, but it's the only way for me. I can hardly call myself esoteric when really I'm a girl who's quite hysteric but I'm trying to change that (trying to change that) And if a laboured journey can't get me there I'll take the blame even if it's not fair but I'm trying to change that. And all that remains to be seen.. Well I'll be as quiet as a mouse so that I don't irrevocably cause a scene. And I promise you, I'm trying, but it's all so mystifying to me. Change is kinda scary, but it's the only way for me.