Crucified

Crucified a state of mind We're locked inside in a window pain lay down with me This is what I win broken glass and shattered dreams I blame it all on this empty reflection staring back at me I'm crucified Now tell me How can you except another smile from a tortured soul I believe there's a darker place I can go But no Rather smile in public just for show I don't wanna tell another story Of a broken boy Living in a broken world Listening to the devils noise You will never understand When I write these bloody lines For you it's just another smile Deep down I just die When I talk about my life Either get it through the lines Or look me in the eyes And try not to lose your mind When you try to picture what's inside You can find me drowning Maybe Blame it on the liquor Or blame it on my bloods cuz I thought they were thicker But now my pain is doubling And my mind is suffering And I'm tired all these people Always Asking why I talk about depression But your walking through these sessions It's ironic for your question But your lying to your self And your gasping out for help Like your living in the revenant It's just part of my expression I don't wanna tell em Iv been through the riches Now I'm washing dirty dishes On some run away wishes Forgiveness is what I ask Had to sell a couple bags Damn I had my own reasons And the People that I love Why are they always leaving Guess I will never learn So I keep on jotting words And sometimes I feel empty But I'm golden in the heart man youuu should have kept me But I'm not sayin I'm a better person I would never leave a soul carry all this burden Got him hurtin fallin to a worst version Got him sippin on this bourbon he might just let one in the chamber Let it through his crazy mind cuz his life is Uncertain I swear I can just pull the bloody trigger Fly to another life Watch my wife walking down the Aisle Hold up it's a lie take me back to life I just wanna run And my feelings are so numb Please Try not to sing along This is where I can be alone Crucified a state of mind We're locked inside in a window pain lay down with me This is what I win broken glass and shattered dreams I blame it all on this empty reflection staring back at me I'm crucified