Reflection

I am my own worst enemy But leaving me can't be the remedy I am bound by my muscle memory Still holding on even though I lost my dignity Keep on reaching out Looking for connections But I'm band from Asking her any questions Seeking for the answers Keep on second guessing If she loves me then Why aren't we connecting I'm working on my self Trying to stop projecting Visualising the pain I am rejecting So I stand proud Thankful for my health And if I can't love myself How can anybody else And I'm still waking up before dawn Because I'm torn In two, half of me Still resides within you And as it starts to fade You won't find me in the shade I'll still be found Sitting in the sun you made And that touch I crave Because my hearts a slave To that love you gave But I must be brave. And if I'm gonna break This cycle of shame I need to lay new pathways Out in my brain So my therapist says That I'm starting to gain To late to save her But I'm starting again So I stand proud Try to be honest with myself And if I can't ask for help How can anybody else