Distracted

I roll my windows up All you hear is music loud Tryna block all these sounds and forget about Those times mid winter, feeling all this fucking doubt Never saw a winner Ghost me right before my sprout Now tell me how you feeling now It's a shame You admit you feeling awful Ouch Behaving like you care Too late to be thoughtful now Betrayed unaware Trust is thrown in the air This ain't a game of dares I call you out like Pi'erre Existence isn't fair It's something we can't keep a spare See as a person We go through several steps in life And some of mine were dreadful so I visualize twice In my mind Careful There's some you never seen You're blind See I was by your side Glock ready Number 9 For you, I put my pride aside more than a couple times And there was moments When all you did was hurt the guy You probably thought you broke me but you get a T for tried I'm just tryna make my people proud but it's hard So distracted All these thoughts and sounds Memories forgot I hide emotions underground I'm just tryna make my people proud but it's hard So distracted All these thoughts and sounds Memories are frozen My heart and feelings never found Mentally broken distracted by the thoughts and sounds So controlling So I leave, take me on a ride To a time in life when I felt more than tied Up in this knot I need to get up out this plot Everyday another problem God when will it stop I'm tired of being tired I'm sick of being sick Adding gas to fire The pain is coming stupid quick I hate to see a liar I'm in the rain losing it But I'm a fighter, promise I'll never choose to quit My momma raised a better man We never had the plan Don't you know the feeling Low on money saving scraps Wishing it was sunny Cold winters in that van Maybe 5 or 6 years old I couldn't understand I just saw momma and dad I know they love me man So much inside, distracted All I do is overthink I can't sleep thinking maybe shit is over P I gotta focus before that mindset take control of me I'm just tryna make my people proud but it's hard So distracted All these thoughts and sounds Memories forgot I hide emotions underground I'm just tryna make my people proud but it's hard So distracted All these thoughts and sounds Memories are frozen My heart and feelings never found Mentally broken distracted by the thoughts and sounds I'm just tryna make my people proud