Isolation vs. Insulation

Yea you can say that I'm in a mood I'm in a room with the lights dimmed low In a groove, thinking back when I was in middle school Getting ridiculed feeling pitiful You can say That life's been slow I mean wrapped around this tentacle of the obligation of reaching my pinnacle Which I thought was critical It was minuscule Slice Kimbo meaning these punches were meant for the camera phones of the backyard Hoping these YouTube users upload a snapshot of these stacked cards Act hard in public no tears I'm a grown man That's ridiculous Put yo dunce cap on in the corner go stand You have the right to remain silent Imma need both hands In plain sight those islands of gold sand remain quite Lovely to eyes but the pride of life is such a distraction To will of God Yea I'm like really God I'm not getting any younger I'm trying really hard to reach your standard But I'm really far like ceiling art Painted pictures hoping you look up dictionary rhyme scheme Scoping out this book love sometimes I wanna be alone And if you read between the lines you can see a clone Blown way outta proportion enforcements Of my deepest hearts desire requires endorsements Of the one who endured torn skin Bore sin in attempt to redeem us free us JESUS help me cuz I'm out why they trying so hard to deceive us Not falling for the okidoke and our only hope will slowly float Down the river of second chances On the banks of double decker mansions that need second glances But whose the champion This life's but a vapor and I don't intend to spend it enslaved where's my 40 acres Morning sickness this is more than labor I'm trying to birth out these ideas my eyes clear no Visine I fear no size king could supply he's my i-v If God be for us then who can be against I admit I was AWOL but I'm bout to reenlist Readjust my priorities and reattempt To resume my authority no need to reinvent the wheel moves forward He Fondly grabbed my attention the cost will show You can say I'm all ears like I'm Ross Perot Lord forgive me Lord forgive them nights I was wilding out Treat your grace so silly But can I show the real me The one whose filthy The one who loves to thrill seek Hedonistic, intrinsic yea the pill freak Naw not really if I could numb the pain you bet I tried Like Novocain These bed of lies Heart set to dwell in paradise Feel like I'm rolling a pair of dice These camera lights are lit up and oh so bright Is that red light on recording all that's important Mourning the thought of my bothers who not freeman like Morgan So take these similes set to exquisite strings of symphonies My soliloquies of hopeless needs are mere sounds On the broken keys of this baby grand Cool like an ocean breeze blowing like bubbles out a babies hand Don't believe the lies but instead read between the lines uh uh Yea imma write till I ain't got ink left Sit here in a dark room pondering trying reflect Some goals that I ain't reach yet And memories that I've repressed Some regrets that I have regressed my forward progress reset It's getting harder trying to keep my head above water Though it started with my feet wet My needs met, but I need rest Memory weary without no defense I feel like each step and each breath Remind me of the weakness of this pink flesh This depression cloud yea keep hovering And can't nobody see that I'm suffering I know it's the blood I'm covered in But I'm stuck on pause like I'm buffering Ain't got nobody to talk to tired of wearing this costume This superhero cape needs a break before I get consumed And what am I triggered by These pot holes got me tripping why (Why) I always had a pot to piss in but my attention lie In stuff I can't have and I can't laugh without both hands covering up both eyes Cuz inside I got no chance But that ain't really true is it uh yea, uh huh Hacheeeaaaaaa Isolation versus insulation Only difference is n-u Thank God for grace and Isolation versus insulation Only difference is n-u Thank God for grace and