03.06.22

Dear Diary My father died last week Didn't hear till today yo I couldn't believe But yet oddly no tears was shed But now all these thoughts just swirl in my head Time oh God the time wasted Time we can't get back so we can't waste it I wasted years of not mending the fence In my defense he didn't try hard enough I gave up on the answers so long ago Still don't understand though I'm a lil more old I know he didn't leave That's another story I wanna grieve but he ain't do nothing for me I'm older now Closer to forty I'm thinking bout a family and maintaining sanity I don't feel sad but I feel regret I could of made the effort had a sit down over bevs Closure even if we didn't get closer But now he's gone and I can't No more chances or hope for answers Gone from my tree a couple more branches Death is a hard experience Draining on the mind bringing body weariness I wish I could turn back the hands on the clock And pick up the phone And say let's talk Dear death you robbed me Dear pride you robbed me Dear life why me Can't turn back time Gotta live with regrets Dear death you robbed me Dear pride you robbed me Dear life why me Can't turn back time Gotta live with regrets I guess