05.17.00

Dear Diary I saw that girl again She was walking down the street with her three best friends She doesn't seem to notice me Though I've grown a couple inches She likes the bad boys Those who raise their middle fingers Curse at the teacher and run around the room I can't act like that Don't know what to do I wear my new jacket It's a flight like the others Black on the outside Carrot on the in My kicks ain't new and she rock the new Js I wish that one day She would look me way We play truth or dare I be hoping we connect Carry gum in case we kiss Always conscious of my breath Just something that I can't put my hands on I think I love her Love is what I stand on My turn at spin the bottle and I give it a go It lands on her Oh no she turns up her nose They like kiss him and get it over quick Give her a small grin She said I'm gonna be sick Leans in closes her eyes Hands on her thighs Puckers up her lips Give mine a lick Can't be dry Gives me a peck To my surprise she starts to laugh and giggle Says it wasn't that bad Picks up pad starts to scribble Passes me a note folded tight with a heart I opened it It read meet me after dark I give a small nod But my insides is racing Getting really nervous Start perspirating I rush home take a bath and a shower Keep checking that clock yo hour after hour It hits seven Lights out Oh yea its game time I get dressed in my schoolboy fresh Bucket hat and a sweater vest Grab my keys and I head to the door But then in walks my mama Oh Lord Yo she lookin at me crazy like boi where you going She like yo exactly that's what I thought Look at the time It's dark you ain't leaving In fact it's prayer time Boi get on your knees I go begrudgingly Fall upon my dungarees Mind can't focus I'm thinking so seductively What will she think if I don't show up They'll be like yo we told you Cowan's a chump Next day at school she just grabs my hand I start to apologize She says I understand Cuz I couldn't leave either my dad was trippin Was inclined to believe her Dear Diary she said she liked me cuz I was different My breath was sweet It's the watermelon We got closer all throughout the years Young dumb and in love those the best years We got closer throughout the years Young dumb and in love those the best years Can't get you off my mind Can't get you off my mind Can't get you off my mind Can't get you off my mind Can't get you off my mind Can't get you off my mind