3 AM

To hear my music back It seems I'm always depressed Seems I'm always moody when I've truly been blessed Fighting all my demons They uninvited as guests Sit in alone this bed 3 AM still not tired Patience strength boldness All the things I desire This music thing take off Maybe cop some designer Battling my feelings I be deep in em often Been thinking bout my death Please don't put me in coffin It's often that I put myself second not first Sometimes I can't speak Can only rap in a verse I know that God hears me Yea he's answered my prayers It's hard for me to mingle Rather be holed up in lair Can't go back to old me In that sea of despair Didn't play fair Know I broke me some rules I couldn't understand I never walked in your shoes It's all a vicious cycle I was stuck in a loop Couldn't get off Had to find the exit I truly lost what was priceless treasure Didn't realize cuz I was chasing pleasure Maybe one day I can grow to be better 3 AM I'm alone in this bed not tired I'm fighting these feelings Need to be inspired I lay down in this bed In my head three am not tired I'm fighting these feelings Need to be inspired I keep my head down Yo I'm tryna be focused Smile when I wanna cry Just hope no one notice I carry heavy burdens You can see by my shoulders The loved ones that I have Yo I wanna be closer That's difficult for me It be making me anxious I just wanna give Love to see joy on some faces Can't afford to be naive Yo the world is so dangerous Hate is so abundant Haters feeling so shameless Things ain't always gloomy Think of things I've accomplished Then I think back to my times as a monster Makes me feel bad Wasn't way I was raised But it's true Some gotta learn the hard way Learned some hard truths Now I teach in the booth Gotta give it my all Give direction to youth Survived the prison of my mind And unloosened the noose Myself This what I offer to you 3 AM I'm alone in this bed not tired I'm fighting these feelings Need to be inspired I lay down in this bed in my head 3 AM not tired I'm fighting these feelings Need to be inspired