My Truth (Only In)

Know who I am Brown kid raised in the slums Didn't understand why my momma struggled wit funds Up in private Twist my fingers Like to emulate thugs I lived a reckless life Immersed myself in the drugs Was sexing sexy ladies Ain't no need to be cautious Take a view into my soul Let my words be my portrait Stayed Stagnant for years Stuck in muck and the mire I faced my inner demons Consequences that dire Used to get picked on and bullied By this name kid named Willy We fought all the time Eventually figured he would kill me A couple goons would chase me And I'd run to my building My sister would defend me She much tougher than I It's crazy how my family We suffer divide So much for being blood Guess we suffer from pride Only in America Only in America Only in America Only in America Not feeling what they telling ya Tell on myself That's the way that I heal Gotta keep it 100 Man despite how you feel Went to school Ain't a fool Got grades that decent But still I dropped out Found excuse and some reasons Fell in love a couple times That first time was the worst She wasn't mine to claim Second time even worse I caught some hands As a man that was rough Third time Had her hand It was tough we gave up Felt all alone Use my vice as a crutch Wit the choices that I made Should be dead or in prison Had a suicidal mind Would stare at knives in the kitchen Violence in my mind Couldn't silence the voices Pass along my struggles And my problems I foisted Stuck in my way True solutions avoided I've been cheated and I've cheated Cycle of abuse I lived to just repeat it Stolen time and objects Had a triple x obsess Liquor liquor liquor Perfect meds for my problems Lying to myself And I'm lying to others Lying by myself Headed nowhere fast Just a kid playing games Drawn to destruction Like a moth to a flame Only in America Only in America Only in America Only in America Not feeling what they telling ya Tell on myself That's the way that I heal Gotta keep it 100 Man despite how you might feel Only in America Only in America Only in America Not feeling what they telling ya Tell on myself That's the way that I heal Gotta keep it 100 Man despite how you might feel