Forgiven

I stopped crying, praying to god for that forgiveness Had a couple friends get killed like that was normal business All this trauma in me make me feel like I can't finish Living life the way the I wanna do and paint my vision Because all I see dark clouds and hard times Made a jump a far climb Over these mountains set the bar high See my mama tears across the map and that's far cry I'm not religious so my grandma crucifying all my wishes Saying God is all you need when pressure drops on you this minute I'm dismissive I dismiss it like the schools do with the children Every Christmas I'm gifted unwrap my ticket To paradise I swear this life is scary nights and scary days I'm very dazed committed to the ridicule I guess that's not the merry way Let's get this shit very straight I'm not who they separate I'm with my people everyday From the small town kid to the heavyweights Feed my family I got a heavy plate My project got a deadly face Shoot outs here and the many wait For the next one down coming back around Niggas don't care when they catch you now I get drunk until I'm blacking out and I feel too much to be acting out because I'm wreckless All I want in my life is a new perspective They don't gotta like me but they gotta respect it Got a preacher all on my pen for the many confessions I just wanna be forgiven for all of my messes I don't gotta fake shit keep it all in the message See the beauty in life like a pretty girl wearing a necklace I need 20 more years of me traveling making progression Look inside of my soul and I wonder whatever success is I stopped crying, praying to god for that forgiveness Had a couple friends get killed like that was normal business All this trauma in me make me feel like I can't finish Living life the way the I wanna do and paint my vision Because all I see dark clouds and hard times Made a jump a far climb Over these mountains set the bar high See my mama tears across the map and that's far cry