Wanna Say

I just want a chance to say that this is more than child's play I just want a chance to say that this is more than child's play I just want a chance to say, I just want a chance to say You give me a chance today, I'll give you a chance to stay All I want is for you to be happy I been in the front I don't hang by the backseat I know you had boys that would chill in the backstreet I been a dog so don't pat me Because most the time I'm not proud You getting high and I'm down, too many funerals watching them now Uncles and aunties lay rest in the ground but I move on and I'm thinking of drown All in this liquor I'm mixing the brown And the white with my niggas around I f*ck a bitch when I'm stuck in her town then back to the crib with the shit that I found Deep in the pits of my soul, I gotta risk what I own Give it all up for a stint on the throne 23 visions I think that I've grown But even Jordan got swept away in the process I ain't slept for days My girl tell me she don't know who I really am because so much I've kept away And that shit bothers I shut down like the kid I was witnessing child trauma No love for my mama Because dad fucking with a new hoe and there's new holes in her sauna She soaks in I like to think I'm pretty sane but I'm open to the idea I'm broken And the child plays in a moment of silence and violence and a new toy to cope with That petrified no getting by emotions I step inside I let the tide change like the current of the sea I paint images vividly of how it sticks with me reminiscing on a couple missing me The frequency easily a deity forever in my soul piece to piece Didn't realize how sweet the piece could be as a kid til you grow up And see the sourness of life a child plays at night we put up a fight a parent does what's right Til we're gone and we're out of sight That's why I cherish what I had as a kid because I could see the light I just want a chance to say that this is more than child's play I just want a chance to say that this is more than child's play I just want a chance to say, I just want a chance to say You give me a chance today, I'll give you a chance to stay