Reflection

Slither inside my brain just for a moment And witness the pain I feel, but try to own it All my thoughts race and repeating as if they're cloning I've lost my own mind and nobody even knows it I wipe the tears off my baggy eyelids as I'm walking In a dim bedroom shut my mouth and hear the talking Its the voices again, I tried to run, but they always stalking I tried to open my heart but metal scrapes as the key is locking I spin a hard beat cuz I'm a goddamn fool Like rapping 'bout girls and money make you think I'm cool But I don't have the shit, makes me feel just like a tool Man these voices in my head are so goddamn cruel I let loose and cry tomorrow will be different I won't be a self-hating fat fucking misfit This steady hardship wheres the sail I've been missing Sometimes I wanna die because I'm barely fucking living I believe that tomorrow will be different I believe, I believe I can see the future within I believe, I believe i deserve the things I'm wishing I believe, I believe i will manifest my vision I believe that tomorrow will be different I believe, I believe I can see the future within I believe, I believe i deserve the things I'm wishing I believe, I believe i will manifest my vision Yo, I hope you don't think I'm not trying Cuz When my brain offers progress you bet I'm buying But when I'm short on change, and my happiness is dying I gotta wait it out till the tears start drying Let me talk to you, all about this pain and my scars Before you back away without feeling my regards Why they always back away before they hear the first part You say you're there for me, but left before I even start I try to block it out but the world stays testing me It won't let me see the people reaching out and blessing me Like my brain and soul are disconnecting, steady severing I hope a record label finds a reason to invest in me A song should be concise and pinpointed in its meaning But my thoughts are bouncing back and forth like pong balls pinging And I'm deaf to this beat, I can only hear the ringing Because my soul has shattered, I just hope tomorrow brings believing I believe that tomorrow will be different I believe, I believe I can see the future within I believe, I believe i deserve the things I'm wishing I believe, I believe i will manifest my vision I believe that tomorrow will be different I believe, I believe I can see the future within I believe, I believe i deserve the things I'm wishing I believe, I believe i will manifest my vision I believe