Used To

If I could reach it I'd prolly grab it But its been So long since I've had it I see my demons They're living lavish Pain is growing so strong I need it back kid I use to Find the vine, divine, or swine, I'm Always Gonna see the trends as straight lines But now I Cease to see the blind eye Got my friends doing their thing leaving me thinking who am i I use to Do it, screw it, caboose, and boo it Like I'm behind the train while y'all are running through it I'm through with it, i now present my case, like i am sueing it I would now like to diss you in the third grade your music is Almost bad as rejection when Alli Pruitt did 8 year old Jack doing his best at losing it So f*ck Phoenix the rotten I'm done pursuing it At least my songs don't sound the same you can stew with it Morbid curiosity a child's instinct Getting bullied every day asking How could they think Im sad all the time I'm scared late at night I can hear them all saying take off the disguise If I could reach it I'd prolly grab it But its been So long since I've had it I see my demons They're living lavish Pain is growing so strong I need it back kid If I could reach it I'd prolly grab it But its been So long since I've had it I see my demons They're living lavish Pain is growing so strong I need it back kid If I could reach it I'd prolly grab it But its been So long since I've had it I see my demons They're living lavish Pain is growing so strong I need it back kid If I could reach it I'd prolly grab it But its been So long since I've had it I see my demons They're living lavish Pain is growing so strong I need it back kid I Use to Love myself for everything I am But now I Second guess, hate, and try to pretend To be the One i see in dreams with cash and a friend Without the Care for thinking if you don't give a damn I use to Clown in town with tank tops feeling wild But now I Keep the hoodie and the sweats dressing mild Because I Was told a youngin I'm too fat for a smile And that if I wanna feel love i must go 'way for a while I use to Feel as if I'm gonna make it to summit But now I Fear the day that this journey just meant nothing And I Think that all i want now is to make something But I Worry that my convictions were me bluffing Use to Have a concept of where I stand I used to Feel the music i wrote through my hand But i Think what I'm creating now is super bland Hopin That one day ill find that spark-fire again It seems like every single night i wanna die Then wake up to see the LIGHT, this isn't right I'm asking WHY Fight or flight when i close my EYES, mouse or might when i wanna CRY I need a night light cuz i might fright, cuz i miss the days when i was five Purple pegasus perplexes me so pendently The perfect piece precedes who plays it per diem pretentiously. They think its early to mention me But I'll show em that my lyrics surely get the best of thee I bet the rest of me, the power that is vest in me You don't wanna mistake the moves i make like I'm some vestige He has selected me, he's always standing next to me I wont betray the snake but he stays hissing through the messagery He's not my buddy, but he teaches me a lesson Anxiety has taught me how to dig through all the wreckage I trust his feeling cuz he knows what for I'm destined Im just praying for return on the investment If I could reach it I'd prolly grab it But its been So long since I've had it I see my demons They're living lavish Pain is growing so strong I need it back kid If I could reach it I'd prolly grab it But its been So long since I've had it I see my demons They're living lavish Pain is growing so strong I need it back kid If I could reach it I'd prolly grab it But its been So long since I've had it I see my demons They're living lavish Pain is growing so strong I need it back kid If I could reach it I'd prolly grab it But its been So long since I've had it I see my demons They're living lavish Pain is growing so strong I need it back kid