My Head

Wish people knew what went on in My head All I know is most days man wish I Was dead Understand this isn't what I wanted Instead Want to trade it get a normal life,get Some some real sleep actually hit a Bed Music is the place I go when I'm Scared and see red Don't be mad at me when i leave you On read Gotta do for me that's what I said I'm not perfect and never will be it's Something I'm learning But do me dirty I'm turning to a Fiend Big hearted person but that comes With a price Burdens of your kindness will kill Your mental health and end your life Sacrificing everything now ready to Roll the dice Things that I say I have to do and Live it twice to learn that price Doesn't matter what anyone says I'll Never take that advice Because I'm striving to reach what I Think to be paradise So with this pair of dice imma roll And not think twice gotta to do what I think is right Someone help me understand what's Going on in my head In my head Can anyone help me that's what I Said What I said Need help understanding what's in My head In my head I don't know What's going on in my head I feel-good like I'm in my zone, on My thrown Doing this on my own I gotta know If what I'm doing is right tryin to Reach my milestone But got shit stopping me on my way On this road But none of you want this smoke This ain't no joke Keep goin and You'll get the next episode cause I'm Ready to explode You know this is what I'm use too But I refuse to change is that abuse? Neglecting myself and others has Been the excuse No more I'm tired and done I'm Ready to improve I want to move in the right direction Not stressin what I see my Perception just bothers me leaves me Guessing Ready for my resurrection I want to Be molded into perfection And I'm Telling you this without any Question Running from your problems will Never fix your depression No matter how hard you cover it We'll always see that expression That's why I'm standing here, Recording this song, having this session Hopefully what I speak is teaching lessons