My Year

Ah Uh Ah Yeah Music is my life No one knows the reason I why Write From the start no one saw my Dreams thru this sight White boy really trying to rap this ain't right I don't claim to be nothing other than me Now I'm telling you get what you see It will be a guarantee Imma bring it to reality Now that I have some followers sales and streams I'm taking my time building my team I vision it Everytime in my dreams Things in my life don't come free Working hard people don't seem to see You get the final version in a day Never knew it would be this way Making this music to stay stuck in this daze Uhhhhhh what Now that I built a name People don't come to me the same Remember then I wasn't shit from the jump Now everyone is hitting me up that's kinda nuts Praising me for what I've done it Wasn't fun but had to be done Shut you mouth don't make a sound I ain't playing around Now take what's coming you people only wanna dethrone my crown No one knows this flame igniting in my chest Everyone knows the way I get Strapped to me a vest a bomb don't think any less Timers stuck so pulling these wires taking a guess Questioning to cut green or blue I'm doing my best I'm tired wishing I could take a rest Taking everyone in my life as a guest Feeling my heart starts racing Pacing taking the steps I'm aiming Waiting for the time to strike I'm done playing You won't ever see that side of me cause The real me is in disguise Depression is what I symbolize Not trying to dramazie Just telling you what's on my mind Speaking the truth don't know much more to say Guess I just don't know how to say it the right way But imma push thru and be okay Waking up every morning get dressed that's cliche Having this smile on my face looking to wear my feelings but got hate Hoping everyone can see what I'm dealing with Anyone that knows me that's all I want from it Hear the words that I say don't be a hypocrite Just wanna stay here and try to commit Juggling a life that I don't even have And it's sad Never admitting while we're in conversation Overpowers me that's how I got these lacerations Mind goes crazy it fights with me Comes with a price hate to break it to ya that's reality Hated on for of my style Get hostile then told to chill out before I get wild Haters don't really hate you Envy's what they do Hate themselves you're the reflection of what they wish to be which is you Mad I have this outlet Saying how I feel it feels so unreal No need for the approval Signing this deal hopefully this helps me heal Then you can see how I really feel Digging into this beat like a drill Fill the track up overflow spill Coming for the necks time to kill But my name's not bill J Easy Yeah 2020 my year I'm letting everyone know that now Now I don't care what the f*ck you think of me or how you think I'm doing this shit You're right I just want you to know it ain't easy being J Easy Yaherdd